Let’s talk about insecurity, fear, doubt, and anxiety. In many cases, these all feel the same. For me it involves my heart racing, nervous thoughts, and nausea in my stomach. These are the ugly sides of being human. It’s hard to admit that I’m not always so secure in my body or so confident in my personality. Yes, I struggle with anxiety and self doubt. AND IT SUCKS.
I often try to reassure myself that i don’t need someone to make me feel loved and accepted, but it’s not always that easy. After all, these emotions are real. And I know that because I feel them, like a wave crashing into my heart. There are times I feel like if I give in, I won’t be able to breathe. It’s not so much the opinions of others that bother me, it’s the self doubt. It’s far easier to guard your heart from the voice of others, but the internal voice. Well, that’s a whole different demon to conquer.
I can’t remove my mind and place it somewhere else when I need peace. My mind, my thoughts, my emotions, they’re always with me. Everywhere I go, whether I’m in a crowded room or an empty building, my thoughts are with me.
What I’ve learned in my walk with God is that Satan will try all external forces to break me, but then he’ll turn inward. He knows as well as I do that if he can break my mind, he’s won. It’s up to me to not give in, even when anxiety is so present in my mind. When we put our mind on earthly things, we find anxiety and ruin. But, when we set our mind on things above, we find purpose and peace.
Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. -Colossians 3:2
It’s not always easy to shift our mindset to heaven instead of the world, but it’s vital for our spiritual, mental, and emotional health. Above all, if you struggle with anxiety, pray about it. Talk to your pastor. Find a resource that will help you, but always remember to keep God involved.
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. -Isaiah 9:6